Just a bit of my history. I’ll turn 60 next month and I am really excited about it. Especially now that I have made this huge change in the course of my life. I’ve been a 5pm well-functioning alcoholic for years now, although I never used the “A” word. Even though I failed all of the online alcoholic tests, I never would give myself that title. Anyway, I started with wine when I got home, another while making dinner, another with dinner, another while cleaning up, etc. etc. Like most of you…I just couldn’t stop. Didn’t want to stop – until the next morning. I’d make that daily promise to stop, or cut back at least!
It’s just me and my husband now. We are a very functional, happy family, happily married 34 years, with two grown girls living in other states and enjoying a good life.
My 90 year-old mom lives close by and about three years ago she suffered an attack of pancreatitis (caused by alcohol I’m sure). She had her martini’s each night since forever – with my dad before he passed. I sat at her hospital bed and watch as my 87 year-old mom went through detox, hallucinating, pulling pieces of something out of the air. She was so out of it – she had no idea she was doing this. Well, once she recovered, the doctor insisted no more alcohol and she has stayed AF ever since. I knew then that when I did quit drinking, I wanted it to be my decision.
So here I am. I made that decision. I planned it out ahead of time; I drank all of the wine by Sunday, June 9, 2013; I ordered the audio tape “Alcohol Lied To Me;” I bought an app for my phone that kept track of days sober; and I found all of you online. I felt armed with undeniable evidence that my life would be better. So I just did it. And, two weeks into it I attended an AA meeting and as we went around the room, I proclaimed, “My name is Trish, and I’m an alcoholic.” I’ve never felt such relief.
And that’s my story…now let’s get on with our new lives. No more looking back.