Today was a good day. I wrote a small piece on Belle’s blog to signify my 100 day mark. I mentioned that it was a bit anticlimatic though. No fireworks, no bells, no big congratulatory emails. Just a nice quiet day, feeling very good about myself. I’m a bit relieved to be able to stop counting. I have lots of things to do and don’t want to count any more. I feel like a big vidalia onion that needs the outer skin peeled away.
So that’s what I’m doing…I’m peeling away the skins of an onion. I’ve peeled away the cigarettes and the alcohol, I’ve peeled away the sugar (that was easy for me cuz I don’t like sweets), I’m weaning myself off of the Prozac that I’ve taken more than 20 years, and I’m even dyeing my hair back to it’s natural color! I just want to know what it’s like to really be me. I haven’t known that since I was 14 and who knows themselves at 14 anyway. I really will be a blank canvass. I want to be rid of all mind-altering products. I probably should get off the coffee too (I’ll have to ponder that one).
So on another note. I’ve noticed there are several sober tweeters out there. I had a twitter account with only two people following me. My boss and a local boy who has since passed away from cancer. I don’t want my boss to follow my tweets. I don’t tweet because my name is on there, but I’d love to tweet with sober tweeters. So, I’ve changed my profile photo and my username to @changecoursenow. If you are a tweeter, please find me and tweet me. It certainly would be nice to throw out 140 characters now and then to folks that know something about me.
I made this pie on Sunday. It is the first pie I’ve ever made from scratch (keep in mind I’m 60). Saw the recipe on a new Food TV show called Heartland Table. To my new friend Sharon… Excellent crust, but I think next time I’ll leave out the lemon juice from the blueberry mixture. Isn’t it pretty?
Hugs to you all!
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Congratulations on your 100th day! I’m about 12 days behind you and a little nervous about post-100 life–looking forward to a time when I won’t need to count anymore, either. ‘Peeling the onion’ is a perfect metaphor for getting sober, isn’t it? I can’t remember the last time I felt so genuinely interested in myself. 🙂
Congratulations on both feats! I’m at 51 and have to check my phone to remember the days. BUT, every night when my husband pours a glass of wine, I sometimes sigh. It’s getting easier. Anyway, this is your day and the pie looks yummy by the way you should be very proud of yourself. I just clicked to follow you on twitter. I’m really not good at it and just kind of read what other people post (when I remember). Between everyday stuff and reading sober blogs, I don’t tweet much. Jean from @unpickledblog checks on me now and then and tries to help me get the hang of those #marks! 60’s the new 40 don’t you think, and we have lots to do!
Congrats on 100! I’m on day 1, again 😦 But love reading about those who are succeeding.
Congrats on your 100 days! I get your point about the counting, though. I quit drinking almost 3 months ago, and these days I have to look at a calendar to remember the number of days. I’m grateful for having set 100 as an early goal, but already counting seems besides the point, and I’m thinking about new goals not related to the numbers. Peeling away the booze and smokes and antidepressants and sugar is a big job! Best wishes on the ongoing project of becoming the person you are. (And congrats on having made that pie. It’s a beauty!)
Congratulations on 100 days!!! And I just want to reassure you that the anticlimactic feelings are normal – so normal people should perhaps be warned about them so it doesn’t throw them for a loop. It did me. Reaching 100 had seemed such a big deal that afterwards I was hit with ‘what now’ for quite awhile. But I just held on and now it’s like 140 days and I’m less troubled by it all and my next goal, of six months, seems right around the corner.
I loved your previous post about the ways we can use our time now that we’re not drinking! For quite some time there I felt that almost all that time for me was sucked up obsessing about *not* drinking – blogging, reading blogs, reading books about sobriety, listening to sober podcasts. But now more space is clearing up in my head and life and there are other exciting things out there to use it on.
Lilly xo