Whew…it was just as I had expected. Flat. Sat and watched the party go on around me. I was an observer. My own fault of course. I don’t do more than the occasional “how’s the family” type of chat. I have nothing in common with the guests other than we’ve known each other for years and they come to my house for an annual party. Without my excitement over the continuous flow of wine, there was nothing. Just waited for it to be over and they all left.
So, I’ve realized I need to change my attitude. If I want to be a hostess, I need to learn how to enjoy the company of others. How to talk with them and really care about how their family is. How to share stories about my family, assuming they are interested. I need to find something of interest to talk about and share. Books, art, recipes, sports? I was listening to their conversations with each other and those were the subjects they talked about.
If I don’t figure this out, I’ll be a recluse in my own home. Any thoughts?