Still Here – Day 231

Hi all,

Well, I’ve written two paragraphs here and just deleted all of it.  It was boring, and a real downer.  So after reading it, I’ve realized a new direction I need to take.  I originally wrote all the reasons why I haven’t been writing lately.  None of it was at all interesting.  Love the delete key.

In the interest of keeping with my blog title “Changing Course Now,” it’s time to choose a change of direction.  I’ve realized that my lack of motivation to write to all of you for a few weeks is directly related to my lack of interest in joining groups.  I tend to shy away from any group.  Co-workers, Sunday school participants, neighbors, family members.  I just find it easier to be by myself.  No pressure, no drama, no expectations.  I have a wonderful husband who does the obligatory social stuff for us.  I sit back and watch as others enjoy small talk and share stories of things I don’t find interesting.

So here we go…I’m going to challenge myself to join in.  I guess I’ll start with all of you, since we have so much in common!  And, since we are basically anonymous to each other, I can tell you stuff I wouldn’t normally tell others.  If you’re bored with me – find that delete key.  But I’m going to try to write at least once a week.  I’ll also try to continue my AA meetings (even though I’ve become bored with them).  A new exercise group is on the list as well.

So wish me luck… this is a big change for me.

Hugs to all of you!